Wink, Wink, Nudge, Nudge, I'm Covered in bees!, Lonestar!

wow! what a place! you can have a pet!(Maxwell is mine) you can do quizzes! you can talk to every single friend you have! keep in touch that way! it's insane that there's somewhere i can see what my friends are doing.

i'm addicted to this site..i have to aleast visit it once a day!...


when it rains it pours though...after the beautiful engagment of B & Nicole (on a bridge at a rec. park out at Rose City!) my other friend Emily Robbins is getting married! too!  this october!  I would love to give a congratulations to her and her fiancee' ! best wishes to you both! : )

Ok, so things have gone much better since my theraputic vent. things were discussed ,and Honesty prevailed , and that's all that was needed. A "ground to start from" so to speak. Now things go in a positive direction. I know i've learned a few things, about being in a relationship, & other observations, and here's what i've learned:

1) Nice guys like me will ALWAYS finish last. WHY? because we agree with everything, and don't have any type of backbone when it comes to confrontation, or basic descision making. Nerd/comicbook/vampire/gamer/sci-fi/star wars/trek guys like me attract the timing type male/female. Timing? , i say?, The type of male/female that either has a girl/boyfriend AT the time, or is getting out of a serious relationship, or getting divorced. Never in my dating life have i ever dated anyone that was actually free from any of any of those bonds. It's a pattern i just can't break from! So, if you're in this position, please ask yourself (in the very begining, wich i did,BTW) what this relationship is going to be based on, go with your first instinct,if it looks as though you're looking down the barrel of the rebound gun, i suggest you end it immediately....pick up the relationship (if there's any there to continue later ) when the other party has time to reflect on his/her life in present time, I guess i'm saying go slow, be patient, if you love or are attracted to such persons let them heal..if it takes them years(and you're available then) then persue it . when the relationship is focused on the both of you ,and no other real detrimental obsticals are present then and only then can the relationship grow. Oh. and be his/her friend that's pretty much a given, but that's the most important.



2) No one is the bad guy at the end of a relationship. There is no blame anywhere. Just try to think of it as a new begining, and taking what you learned from that relationship and apply it to the next one you see yourself invovlved in. Hoefully the next time you see him/her you can look at what you went through together, Take the very positive of that relationship and apply it to the next level of that relationship.
 



3) Porn & Hookers...you laugh now..but they are an outlet...it's easy to get involved in this medium, just don't get to obessed, i've seen some people that can't do anything else but use there computer as a penthouse magazine. I have friends that are like this currently, and they need serious help. I can see the apeal to it though...you get different sized everything! at the tip of your fingers!, the credit cards suffers, but in the end you get your cookies!...lol...Hookers are some peoples obsession of choice, most try to get strippers to go home with them(hardly ever works, perhaps 5% of the time?) others, use the escort...now this is the way to go if you need that sexual release...it's quick, and there's no emo...wham, bam, thank you ma'am. so the lesson learned here? don't obsess!...everything in moderation!... go back to biblical time once in a while, and just use your emagination!, besides thinking if free!




Ok, so Hemmingway, i'm not(profound or otherwise) but that's what i have so far...

On other fronts, things are starting to look up!...i'm currently working at Kroger, I'm getting compensation from the govt. and my cats are currently staring at me to get them treats!(sitting side by side..at equal hight, like village of the damned!)

My mom is still going through therapy on her arm...last i heard she had a swollen arm(with is to be expected) .  

well it's been a wild ride this past few months...the most recent events are things i already talk about on the journal. my moms health. She's fine after going through shoulder surgery(try saying those 2 words fast!) she went into the hospital on Tuesday and was out by Thursday! it's the greatest feeling in the world when you call the hospital, tell them the bed number and she lady on the other end says that they already checked her out. The other great feeling is calling your mom at home, and she's just complaining of numbness(wich is routine for that ype of surgery) & not being able to move her fingers...but that's ok, she has a therapist come to the house ans works with her..with God & prayers she should confidently come out of this with no pain the the shoulder area.

i'm gonna see Transformers2 tomarrow ! it should be fun i liked(and owned ) the first one so i'm hoping for good speciall effects, and a good action flick. 

My buddie Dennis got married today!  it was a nice short ceromony at the stone angel chapel way way out in flint.(the driving was the most draining of the whole day. )It's nice that one of my D&D pals got hooked up . I guess you would say that the group i hang out with are the steroetypical gamers/quasi-social kind. Smart(Dennis is a math teacher and has 2 masters) & into comics,&star wars/trek. i guess I'm the next to tie the not. I hope i can do that before i'm 40 though(of course, Dennis got married a day before his 40th birthday..Tressa (his new wife) is such a great match for him. ) but i'd have to find someone to do that with...at this point in time that's not going to happen..

The fact that I try not to make any mistakes in a relationship it always ends up the same i do something to piss off the girl and things fall from there.Wether it's her timing of getting out of a relationship to start another one, my timing has always been bad in that regard. This time around i guess it's a hodgepodge of stuff from my Job(or lack there of a fulltime one) to my cats, or my abilitly to perform in bed. (i heard the word "tiny" thrown around)....i'm not bitter or pissed far from it...I just have this feeling of here we go again...i'm 36 so things and these issues just roll off my back even more easily. The more older i get at this relationship biz, the tougher the turtle shell gets.It's like an old Pair of shoes you put on after having them in the closet .Hoping you've seen the end of them, but i pick up those shoes put them back on and turn to familiar territory.. T.v dinners, fast food, & Porn. I'm glad i don't base  my happiness on being in a relationship .if i sound like i'm having a pity party, i'm not, it comes out this way because this is a journal, & you write whats on your mind & its sort of like therapy...  

As of now, getting up everyday and working a JOB.(MIchigan doesn't have many these days) & worring about my mom. Keeping my cats fed & a roof over my head. oh, and My friends too! are things i do with my time.

Speaking of wich i'd like to give a shout out to my friend Marcy. She was kind enough to Text if i had power at my place( this past week Thursday it went out, because of thet storm we had) & offered me her refrig and a place to stay (for my cats too!) it was a great oppurtunity to talk and catch up with her, and that's what we did!.

The house hunting has slowed for awhile...i'm still looking but there are plans in the works to get in a place perhaps by fall. we'll have to wait and see though.

Hello, welcome to another addition of my life.

By now i think i've said that i've acquired a job at kroger...the job is kind of part time but we have gotten up to 40 hours...just not all the time. In this day and age though... i'm glad i have something. it's very tough out there to get any job(especially in michigan!) so i'm bless with what i have at the moment. I don't stop there though....I'm looking for a second job, or a stable 40 a week job. I'm sure they're out there, i just need to find them! It's a good thing i have a computer! It seems that you can't just fill out an app. & talk to a LIVING person, let alone give it to someone..but that's the changing of the times!

Personal stuff? Let's see My mom is doing great after her tumble to the floor(around x-mas time) she's mostly done with the rehab that she had to go through...it nice to know that your 70 year old mother can fall down and be back on her feet in lees 3 months! She still takes long walks with my dad and i found out the other day that next month she may try golfing again!! So that's very good news!

my cats are both doing well!..acting as hyper as usual..it seems that everytime i turn around though...they're both sitting side by side staring right at me...waiting ..as to say "let's both sit here and stare at him!, them maybe he'll get up and get us treats!!" It's hard to watch T.V. when they're doing that though..so distracting!!!

In the next couple of months(when things settle down) i'm going to start socializing more often with the friends i just don't get to see.....as it has been brought to my attention(or realization) that i have weekends free now.

Well it's been awhile since i worked(hell it's been awhile since MOST people worked)in Michigan. I started my job at Kroger this past sunday. It was a fairly productive first day!  At the end of the day i new what i had to do as soon as i walked in the door!...which i can't say that about other first days. My boss told me that i had to "pick up the pace" with that in mind i hope i can!

I bought some kneepads and some gloves(something they should've provided but didn't) to keeps my hands from hurting or from getting cut, and i hurt my knees alot the other night from the constant "dropping to the bottom shelf" i had to do....both items should make my job much easier now!

My mom is walking up hills, & being very active around her place & complex..of course she not happy with the "walking uphill "part though...my dad has helped her out, & is getting her up & active so i'm very pleased &  happy about his dedication!

i need to get back to being alot more social...so don't be surprised in the next couple of weeks for me to call & invite you to do something!

hope you all have a great rest of week!

This past Monday i got some good news! i got called in for an interview at Kroger! I did very well & GOT THE JOB! i'll be doing 3rd shift stock ! I'm glad I'm apart of the employed people of Michigan..it feels good. no more sitting on my ass doing nothying but watch tv & mope . no more wishing to god(or gods for some of you) to answer my pray to start getting into a routine again, coming home to see my boys playing, fighting, or sleeping...

other news..my mom is out of the rehab center & back home! My sister went down there this week to see them and find out how things are going. when i called down there is last Monday to tell them the good news  my mom sounded great, & she waqs very happy for me!.

also, my cat's (vinnie)foot is doing good! it looks like its healing up fine!(i took him to the vet to get some anti-biotics for his foot) although loathe or despises are not the words to explain how much he hates the cone collar...a much deeper word is needed...

i hope that these are the first days of a more positive new year . a smooth start to getting back on my feet again! 

i used the follwing userpic to best explain the year....

with that in mind lets move on...the positive is happening to other good aquaintenses& good freinds. my best friend Nicole just bought a house & it's a nice starter home. 3 bed rooms 1 bath with nice sized yard! i think throught the years she'll be quite happy with her purchase. i wish her nothing but the best!

An Aquaintance of mine had a baby!...Sean! i've been looking at the journal almost everyday & it seems that he's a natural at being a dad. i can't wait to learn about him & his family for as long as i have a computer!

Now that thepositive is packed away...let's get down to things...i lost my current job at Curtis Metal Finishing. I was a temp, so i didn't stand a chance of staying during this current automotive crisis, it turns out i may not've made enough money to get unemployment(but as it stands not determined yet) i filed last month around the 18th of Nov. so not getting any check or letter of determination is really pissing me off(to say the least). i'm living off Patriot Bonds & savings wich aer dwindling fast

my cat vinnie has a leg wound, no money to take care of it...and it's not that i can take from my checking account & give it to the Doctor to have him help his wound along, i just don't have the money to spare.


my Mom was in the hospital because of an accident, according to yesterday she's out, because when i called to see why there was somebody answering her bed phone & got somebody else, well as disturbing as that was i got with the operator who told me they didn't have a "Klann" at that hospital. I'm so happy i'm "in the know" with my family members! 

This time of year....i have my place decorated, a nice fun holiday party, and non-stop christmas carols in my car & apt.! christmas cards that drape down a wall & there isn't a Salvation army bucket that doesn't get filled with green cash or the change i had lining my pockets..it's a whole different story with the issues i'm enduring above...my point is money is important to a persons reflection, or perseption on life & or holiday Season. if you have the money flow, you buy things(nice things) for your loved ones irregardless of how much it costs. you don't have to worry where your next check is coming from...this is a first for me...days at a time actually not relising that it is the holiday season . even when i'm out at the mall or even driving!! not oblivious, i guess either i'm not noticing, or not caring at all. even writing this as i type i just relized i don't have my tree up! (for the first time ever!) To me i find my behavior to be rather curious. I conclude that i am more stressfull, lathargic, and depressed. "Money doesn't buy happyness", is said by the person that is filthy rich! "you're rich because you have freinds" do they give out a monthly check?  so as you go through year after year try to think to yourself that Christmas is automatic, the new years is automatic, but once you get hit with being moneyless you'll feel the same as me, there is always somebody better off than you are, that will never go away.

7:50 am i got out the door(with my cat vinnie's help)& voted !

Now people who know me understand that i'm not a morning person, but with the genuine excitement i had, & spring in my step i got out of bed went on the computer, got the directions to where i was going to perform the privlige & duty given to me by past &(current) veterans of every war we ever fought in.  

it felt really good! i actually thought my voice was heard!

A new day has dawned & i'm glad i'm here to witness it .

Weather Barack Obama will do a good job ? Only the full 4 years will tell , he will need our support , weather you voted for him or not .

hi just a quick note, that i'm ok!...i havn't posted in awhile, trying to get a new job & keeping sane. 

if anybody can tell me how the ren. fest attendence is this year let me know..i may be on my way on the last weekend (garb & all!)

i do have to make one statement to make though ...congrats to my friend that got  a job this past week(in this michigan economy!) for the others keep on truckin'..we'll find something soon!

 

wish me luck!

today was a good day, and the back pain has been trying at times. 

I'm hoping in the next couple of weeks to get with friends i don't normally see...

 today was a day for being lazy & trying to get over this frog in my throte. 

Work was ok(i want to get something else) 8 hours is a long time! 

wow! it looks like all my friends had good times at there respective cons! i just hope next year i can get back to Bashcon in Toledo.

All in all i hope this week goes by fast(and this frog goes away too!) i've got plans at my friend Nicole's that i don't want to miss

hello, & Welcome! 

I'm here to tell you about my life, & when things happen to me.  nothing has happened today, but tonight i'm going bowling with friends! i'm hoping to use my new blue ball tonight, & find my rythym. 

i'm hoping my friends are all doing well at their respective conventions( some are at Convocation, others are down in Toledo at Bashcon.

i Have an interview for a job with K-Mart  so pray i get that job!...i'm also getting some unemployment.

i'll keep you posted on what's going on.

Boogie Down! 

mike.